What to write . Creativity really spikes when I've exams. Do you want to listen to me rave about my failed ventures.I can even make it sound funny.. Almost..

Or do you want me to motivate you to be your better self. Oh I can do that , but don't you look me in the eye, cause then you'll know it's not true. I can't even fucking motivate myself to wake up each morning. I really tried you know? I cannot be happy. I don't even like who I am . I'm not the ohmygodiamsohappyispreadraysoffuckingsunshine kinda girl, but people think I am. Well then that's the thing about disguises , you can be good at it if you don't care about it . But sometimes I care, sometimes I want to be that sunshine ,I  do want to make someone happy when their skies are gray. I'm no saint, I want to make them happy because that'll make me happy and I'll feed good about myself.Okay I know that's a pathetic thing to write but I don't want your sympathy, Don't you sympathize with the devil. Go read another blog. Bye