Heyy come out.
I smile and closed my tablet and went outside . We went to the beach today. I felt so fresh. I haven't seen the sun in so many days .
It was around sunset and the sky had a purple hue. So beautiful. I looked over and you were trying to capture the sunset .
'Can I use your shoulder as a camera stand'
"Yeahh why not. " I smiled for nobody.
The food is taking forever to reach and you're still editing that photo. I wait for you to say something. Then I say something about how boring my classes are. I ask about your day. You murmur something, trying to get the color grading right. I look around , my freshness fading a bit. You're telling me about your grandma while you transfer photos to your phone and also keeping track of the football score. And you start telling me about the game. So I ask you what happened to the grandmother , and you seem to have forgotten what you were talking about.
My undivided attention feels wasted on you. You take a call in between .I curse my digital detox gurus because I didn't have a single entertainment app with me.
Don't you think it's so pretty? I ask after . And you nod in between your tasks . What a waste of expensive mascara. I feel angry at you for not even looking at me, at myself for skipping that class, and the food that took an hour to arrive, . You stopped talking all together and was busy with I'm not sure what. My class timer went off , I've missed another class .
My pent-up anger burst and the sea turned red, the plates went flying, and I threw your phone to the sea. And stormed out of the place.
Breathe in and count to ten.
I looked at you again.
'Do you wanna go have juice elsewhere?' I ask not expecting a response
'What?'
"Mhmm ' I shrugged it off, I didn't want juice . I wanted to get out of this pretty place.
I wanted to go back to my tiny reading room where I can lie down and sleep sometimes when I'm bored . And cry when I'm angry . And eat when I'm stressed.
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