Delirium

I am everywhere and nowhere

Stuck somewhere in space.

But then love

Is a strong word.

Is it safe to say that it's love .

And I drift off. 

Lost in my head.

And I think I see you

 in front of me

Smiling and laughing with another girl.

I feel

Jealous, lonely, tired.

And a little relieved.

I see myself too, laughing and smiling 

With someone else.

Have I found the closure I badly wanted,.

Or is it just laughter , cause

You know 

We can say lonely from the

Sound of their laughs.

So is it that lonely laugh .

I'm right here and I'm not.

I'm stretching these nights into days .

So that I've something to do .

This storm 

In my head is clouding my thoughts .

This delirium I feel , 

How long can I not let it surface,

Can I strangle it and keep it inside

And pretend nothing was ever there 

to start with.