Living isn't really very significant.
To live is to be in pain , weighing you down when you sleep at night.
That's why.
That's why we create relationships and things that we like.
So that we know
We are not alone.

Okay so I was walking, I don't know why and it happens to be inside my college.

And then I saw a place where I can sit. I sat there. It was windy and my lazily combed hair was doing a dance of their own. And a guy came ,I know this guy , he is in my college. He was like oye why are you sitting hear all alone.

I said " I don't know '

And he asked "Are you depressed"

"Not really"   Wait what.

"So you came to enjoy the nature"

"I don't know" I reply cause I really haven't thought about it.

I breathed better after he left .

Why do you always need a reason for doing things.

If you do it without thinking , your body or mind probably wants it.

Why do you have to ruin moments talking or even thinking about it. Just swallow it and feel good about it. 

So let's be quiet and not think or think . But just don't force yourself .

Let things be and it's okay if I'm still sitting here and if my hair is trying new steps now.

People always leave.

I haven't written a new year post yet. Cause I wanted it to be a happy one. Something that screams out that this is my year.

I don't know if it's just me .But people always seem to leave. Right now , I'm judging myself, cause I don't know what it is I am doing which is making people leave . I'll really need criticism here, maybe I won't be able to handle it, but everyone deserves the truth. Period.

I'm the only story I've heard where people just get up and leave at times when you don't have a clue . When you least expect it. When you're finally getting comfortable.  Why though. Is it the people I chose or is it really me. Is it cause I take a little more time to let people in. Is it cause I find it scary to let people know that behind the mask of weird jokes and efforts to try to fit in; is no one special. Just another vulnerable human. Just like you.