People are so strange.

For me, I don't know what I'm feeling right now.

I know I should be grateful for the things I have.

But I'm not so mature you know, 

I'm striving to be , but the process is kinda slow I guess.

I can't pinpoint the feeling.

It's not a void really. 

Its more like a tube with water flowing inside.

You're happy when the waters starts falling through ,

But that's so 

Short termed

And you know

 it's gone.

And sometimes you don't think about the tube

You laugh with others.

But is it just me 

Or does everyone think my laugh 

is so

Shallow.

Like it lacks the soul in it.

So I end it before everyone else,

Nobody would notice now.

And I've never noticed these things about me.

It's like I've become

 a stranger, to me .