Second to everything

As I remember it, I've not told anyone about how important some things were to me. By were, you might mistake they are not so important to me anymore,. Well, they still hold a very special place in my organ of thought. But maybe not as important. Their importance is debatable.

Today is my happiest day. My saddest day. My day of growing. It was since 2009.

2009
Oh I didn't know today was his birthday!
I am too shy to wish.
Let me just smile .

2010
It's too sad I'm in a different class. I should probably wish him after school.
Oh, he is surrounded by so many people. We aren't friends anyway .

2011
Let me post this on his facebook at correct 12 . He might notice the time.
I'll try to look my best.

2012
Maybe I shouldn't wish. I'll just leave a post.

2013
We are in different schools. I'll give my friend a note saying ' Happy birthday. God bless'

2014
Tring tring
''hey! It's me Evelyn. Happy birthday!!''
'Which Evelyn?'
''eh, Evelyn .. Nevermind. Gotta go!''
Beep

Damn. The love of my life forgot me .

I really like this other guy. Maybe he is not the one.

2015
"Happy birthday!"
"Thank you!"
"See you soon .Bye!"
"Bye.."

2016
"Happy birthday. God bless! "
"Thank you! How's college? "
"Good. Bubye! "

2017
"Happy birthday. God bless!"
"Never miss a birthday"
"Never.Bye now."

2018
"Happy birthday!. God bless!"
"Hey. Long time!"
"Yes.i hope you're doing well!"
"Bye?"
"Haha bye!"

2019
Happy birthday.

Here's to a decade of never forgetting to wish. I grew up in between . Everyone did of course. Overcame a lot of childhood drama. Developed more adult drama. Adjusting with feeling second to everything, only to realize you're actually first in the things you don't acknowledge. You don't notice what you take for granted.

Thanks to my childhood crush. I learned a lot . I hope you find all the happiness in the world like I found mine. Well, most of it.