Using my heart only to pump blood.

I’m not where I am supposed to be.

My personal growth stopped while I was mending relationships getting over trauma

Trying to make things right.

Why don’t I just stop.

Accept that some people are not lovable.

So till I learn how to love myself.

I won’t let love in.

It might rain love.

But I am keeping dry.

I am giving my heart a break.

Snap out of it

 I’d like to collide into you

Like an unbalanced atom 

In a magnet

Searching for my other pole

In all that frenzy

It’s tragic

And sexy

Or

I’d like to settle down

Where it’s so fucking peaceful

You can’t even call it work of breathing

Somewhere I don’t have to think so much

Where I don’t have to be brought back to reality

Revolving

Free falling

Dissolving 

And finally 

Disappearing.

Let’s meet midway or let’s meet never

I look right then left

An e rikshaw overtakes a car

A boy on his bicycle 

A star explodes somewhere

And I cross the road 

The car light blinding me

The magnetic field shifts

And I reach out for your hand for balance

The light reflecting off of the veins in your hands

A cannulatable hand

But it swings forward 

And I shake hands with air