Walls

Can I stand on your toes, 

So I can look right into your eyes.

Hold down your second toe with mine and touch your arms for balance.

It's crazy how you can remember touch. I'll remember  to tell my walls about you today.

How you keep my thoughts at bay.

How when I close my eyes,

My thoughts can measure your proximity.

And my walls know secrets sometimes I don't like to tell myself. 

But that's okay.  For now. 

Because I can see me 

when I see you.

Emotional fool.

I ruin it all the time. 

But you should know , that the only

Thing that comes easy to me 

Is loving you. 

Everything else is so difficult. 

Getting out of bed everyday is a misery. 

I know I shouldn't lose myself loving you.

But I'd self destruct for you. 

And I'm lost without you. 

And I don't know why I'm sad .